Good Friday Reflection: I Didn’t Know What I Didn’t Know Until God Found Me
I was lost.
I just didn’t know it yet.
I wasn’t searching.
I wasn’t questioning.
I was simply living within what I knew.
Until God made Himself known.
Before Awareness
Before that moment, life felt normal.
Not perfect, but familiar.
There was no urgency to look deeper.
No sense that anything was missing.
Because you don’t miss what you’ve never experienced.
I didn’t know what I didn’t know.
When Awareness Came
Then, God made Himself known.
Not in a way I could logically explain.
But in a way that shifted something in me.
I began to realise:
I wasn’t alone.
There was more to life than what I could see.
More than what I had been living.
But with that awareness came something unexpected.
A longing.
The Loneliness I Didn’t Expect
Once I became aware of deeper connection,
I started longing for it in my everyday life.
For intimacy.
For something real.
But what I longed for…
and what I experienced…
didn’t match.
And slowly, that gap turned into pain.
What started as awareness
became loneliness.
And over time, that loneliness pulled me into a dark place.
When God Met Me Again
But that wasn’t the end of my story.
Because that was where God met me again.
Not just as someone I knew about,
but as the One who saw me.
Who met me in that place.
Who reminded me that my life had purpose.
That I wasn’t forgotten.
That I wasn’t alone.
Something shifted in me.
Not everything changed overnight,
but I was no longer facing it alone.
What Came After
Not long after, I moved to Sydney.
A new environment.
A new season.
And in time, I met my husband.
Then came our children.
Each step… not something I could have planned.
But something I can now look back on with clarity.
My Dayenu
This week, as we approach Good Friday,
I’ve been reflecting on the idea of Dayenu,
a traditional phrase that means “it would have been enough.”
It’s a way of recognising that even one act of God’s goodness
would already be more than we deserve.
And yet, He never stops at just one.
When I look at my life now:
If He had only made Himself known to me
when I didn’t even know He existed,
that would have been enough.
But He didn’t stop there.
If He had only met me in my loneliness
and reminded me that my life had purpose,
that would have been enough.
But He didn’t stop there.
If He had only restored my hope,
that would have been enough.
But He didn’t stop there.
If He had only brought me into a new season,
that would have been enough.
But He didn’t stop there.
If He had only given me a husband,
that would have been enough.
But He didn’t stop there.
If He had only given us children,
that would have been enough.
But He didn’t stop there.
Good Friday
Good Friday is the ultimate reminder of this.
That God didn’t just create us
and leave us to figure life out on our own.
He made Himself known.
He pursued.
He came close.
And ultimately,
He gave Himself for us.
Not because we were aware.
Not because we were searching.
But because He is good.
Closing
I could keep going.
There are so many ways He didn’t stop there.
But that’s the point,
He never does.
I didn’t know what I was missing.
Until God made Himself known.
And now I see,
He never stopped at enough.
🤍 Vera
Leadership & Communication Coach
Founder of The Honesty Lab & VeraChin.com
